It's nice when the author of a book ties things together at the end—and
as the priest pointed out in his homily on the gospel today, St. John
is such an author. In the final chapter of John's gospel, the apostles
go fishing: fishermen before Christ came, they are fishermen afterwards;
and so it goes.
There is in that final chapter one striking parallel to the things
that came before which the priest did not bring out—one odd detail upon
which, in fact, I have never heard any priest comment. Probably this
is because the detail is not explicit in the text, making my extraction
of it (at best) a pious inaccuracy, like the crucifixes that show
Christ's palms pierced instead of his wrists. But it is a detail, or a
theory about a detail, that has hovered in the back of my mind for some
time, and resurfaces every time the passage in question is read.
After this, Jesus shewed himself again to the disciples at the sea
of Tiberias. And he shewed himself after this manner. There were
together Simon Peter, and Thomas, who is called Didymus, and
Nathanael, who was of Cana of Galilee, and the sons of Zebedee, and two
others of his disciples.
Simon Peter saith to them: I go a fishing. They say to him: We also
come with thee. And they went forth, and entered into the ship: and that
night they caught nothing.
But when the morning was come, Jesus stood on the shore: yet the
disciples knew not that it was Jesus.
Jesus therefore said to them: Children, have you any meat? They
answered him: No.
He saith to them: Cast the net on the right side of the ship, and you
shall find. They cast therefore; and now they were not able to draw it,
for the multitude of fishes.
That disciple therefore whom Jesus loved, said to Peter: It is the
Lord. Simon Peter, when he heard that it was the Lord, girt his coat
about him, (for he was naked,) and cast himself into the sea.
But the other disciples came in the ship, (for they were not far from
the land, but as it were two hundred cubits,) dragging the net with
fishes.
As soon then as they came to land, they saw hot coals lying, and a fish laid thereon, and bread.
Jesus saith to them: Bring hither of the fishes which you have now caught.
Simon Peter went up, and drew the net to land, full of great fishes,
one hundred and fifty-three. And although there were so many, the net
was not broken.
Jesus saith to them: Come, and dine. And none of them who were at meat,
durst ask him: Who art thou? knowing that it was the Lord. John 21:1-12.
Isn't
there something odd about this? No, not the number of fish in the
net. Not the fact that Jesus already has dinner going. Not even the
reversal of Peter's sentiments from the previous miraculous draught
("Depart from me, for I am a sinful man, O Lord," Luke 5:8). Read that
second paragraph again.
Right then. Now, from the middle of Matthew ...
And forthwith Jesus obliged his disciples to go up into the boat, and
to go before him over the water, till he dismissed the people.
And having dismissed the multitude, he went into a mountain alone to pray. And when it was evening, he was there alone.
But the boat in the midst of the sea was tossed with the waves: for the wind was contrary.
And in the fourth watch of the night, he came to them walking upon the sea.
And they seeing him walk upon the sea, were troubled, saying: It
is an apparition. And they cried out for fear.
And immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying: Be of good heart: it
is I, fear ye not.
And Peter making answer, said: Lord, if it be thou, bid me come to
thee upon the waters.
And he said: Come. And Peter going down out of the boat, walked
upon the water to come to Jesus. But seeing the wind strong, he was
afraid: and when he began to sink, he cried out, saying: Lord, save me.
And immediately Jesus stretching forth his hand took hold of him,
and
said to him: O thou of little faith, why didst thou doubt?
And when they were come up into the boat, the wind ceased. And they
that were in the boat came and adored him, saying: Indeed thou art the
Son of God. Matthew 14:22-33.
I don't know how deep the sea of Tiberias is today, much less how
deep it was in the time of Christ; and there are probably some tiresome
archeologists out there who will tell me that it wasn't deep at all; or
perhaps there will be historians to point out that the way the apostles
were fishing, or the time of year, or Peter's girding his clothes, or
some other such detail indicates that the boat was near to shore. Or
perhaps there is a Greek scholar who will tell me that, in the original
tongue, the phrase "cast himself into the sea" idiomatically means
something more like "hopped casually into the really shallow water."
And of course, it's possible that in three years of land duty with
Jesus, Peter the fisherman has learned how to swim.
But I don't think so. No, I think this is what happened.
Previously, when the disciples were in the boat across the water, Jesus
came walking to them, as an indication of his divinity. Now he has
raised Lazarus from the dead; has risen from the dead himself; they have
touched his hands and side: they know that He is Divine. Previously,
when the disciples were in the boat across the water, Jesus came walking
to them, the way a mother comes to her children who cannot yet walk, to
help them and to teach them how. Now Jesus, as he prepares to ascend
to his Father, is imparting his power to the apostles who will be his
representatives on earth. They will have to get along—not altogether
without him; that would be impossible; but without his visible support. He can no longer come to them; they will have to come to him.
That is what is happening generally. As to Peter: he is being
transformed, from the sinful man who wished the Lord to depart, who
begged Jesus not to die, who would not have his feet washed, who would
not own his discipleship—into the man who will lead a Church militant
with such pesky bishops as Paul and such dastardly opponents as Nero.
Fortunate for all of us, and not just Peter, that he's received the Holy
Spirit! And such is the grace that he has received now, such is his faith, that when John tells him "It is the
Lord," he doesn't question. He doesn't hesitate. There is no "if it be thou, bid me come." He simply "cast[s] himself into the sea."
I don't imagine him swimming. He's running on water. And he's so eager to see Jesus he doesn't even realize it.
Implausible, because St. John doesn't mention the miracle? But
there is so much that the gospels leaves out; of the things Jesus did,
St. John speculates that "if they
were written every one, the world itself, I think, would not be able to
contain the books that should be written."
So, if I ever get around to making that movie of the life of Christ, you know what to look for ten minutes from the end.
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